the most scared things and my life is miserable right now :(

the most thing that we scared is failure and been hurt or being left by someone that we love . am i right peeps ? for me, that is the most thing that i really scared for in my life. and now, i feel it what i really scared 4 in my life in one time at right now . and, untill right now, i cant accept that he already gone and stay away from me . and lately niey, my life is so miserable. really miserable. and messed up . 

Lepak With My Friends At Hostel And About My Mood Tonight :(

heyy peeps ! heheheee sekarang aku tengah lepak plus chat dengan kawan aku kat hostel seperti biasaa ah bro untuk release kan stress and tension aku . hahahaha~ itulah usual routine kitaorang sejak kebelakangan ini . kebiasaan kitaorang selalu gossip about kawan-kawan college kitaa, boyfriends, secret admire, and, about college life.  hahahaha~ smbel makan snek :) sedapnyee ! tpi malam niey aku and kawan-kawan aku ceritaa pasal hal aku, and what is my prob ? aku pum ceritalah from a to z ~ and also aku betul stress malam niey and perlukan kawan untuk aku lepaskan stress aku. thanks to my friends coz willing to hear . and mlam niey mood aku sungguh tak stabil, dan bukan hari niey jee mood aku tak stabil, tpi lately niey. aku sedih gilaa kebelakangan niey. rasaa cm nak nanges jee. kadang-kadang air mata tuh bole kuar secaraa sendiri. hurmmmmm :(  aku rindu sngat-sangat kat dyee. dan rasaa cm nak nanges jee sekaranggggg ~sumpaa weyhhh. i really miss him damn. and why he go away from my life ? and i know he wont came back to me . sometimes when im alone i think is it my fault ? or he is too egoistic ? I really need him god :(

All About You :(

I know girl , when you look at me
you don't know how i feel
cause I'm usually so nonchalant
my feelings I conceal
but I want you to know
oh, I want you to know

I must admit I've felt this way for more than quite a while
but I can't hold it no longer when I see that pretty smile
can't wait no more
oh, I can't wait no more

oooh

[chorus]
girl, to tell you the truth
It's alway's been you
I'm all about you
oh, girl
no one can do me the way you do
It's always been you
I'm all about you

maybe I'm a fool for speaking up but I don't mind
cause a girl like you will come around like
once in a million times
so what do I do?
tell me what do I do

and the look that you are givin' me gives me hope to believe
so for you baby I'll change my ways I'll
wear my heart on my sleeve
got nothin' to lose
I've got nothin' to lose

oh, girl, to tell you the truth
It's always been you
I'm all about you
oh, girl
no one can do me the way you do
It's always been you
I'm all about you

girl when you smile
not a place I'd rather be
just stay for a while
then you'll see you should be right here with me
cause I love everything you do
that's why I have to take this time baby to tell ya
oh, and now you know
and now you know

girl, to tell you the truth
It's always been you
I'm all about you
oh, girl
no one can do me the way you do
It's always been you
I'm all about you

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
I'm all about you
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
I'm all about you
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
I'm all about you girl
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Easy Come and Easy Go Like Me :(

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad women, bad women, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car
[- From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/bruno-mars-lyrics/grenade-lyrics.html -]

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no

Rest Of My Life For Capital AB :(

Everyday I Wake Up Next To An Angel
More Beautiful Than Words Could Say
They Said It Would'nt Work But What Did They Know?
Cause Years Passed And We're Still Here Today
Never In My Dreams Did I Think That This Would Happen To Me

As I Stand Here Before My Woman
I Cant Fight Back The Tears In My Eyes
Oh How Could I Be So Lucky
I Must've Done Something Right
And I Promise To Love Her For The Rest Of My Life

Seems Like Yesterday When She First Said Hello
Funny How Time Flies By When You're In Love
It Took Us A Lifetime To Find Each Other
It Was Worth The Wait Cause I Finally Found The One
Never In My Dreams Did I Think That This Would Happen To Me

As I Stand Here Before My Woman
I Cant Fight Back The Tears In My Eyes
Oh How Could I Be So Lucky
I Must've Done Something Right
And I Promise To Love Her For The Rest Of My Life

Everythings is already gone :(

"maseh aku engat sms terakhir antaraa aku dengan capital ab" , dyee seperti sudah benci gilaa kat aku and apaa yang pasti dyee dah buang no aku.  sedih gilaa doe, waktu tuh apabilaa aku text dyee, dyee tak kenal aku and boleh tnyaa aku niey sapaa ? *sumpaa sedih doe*  aku rasaa cm nak nanges jee peeps time tuh , and, tibaa-tibaa darah serbu naek ke kepalaa aku doe, sekarang capital ab sudah pergi dri hidup aku and sudah jauhkan diri dyee dari aku untuk selamanyaa. selamaa-lamanyaa peeps.  what should i do now peeps ? and what should i do if aku terserempak dengan dyee kat college peeps ?  then lately niey, aku tak thu napaa dengan diri aku and apaa y telah terjadi kat diri aku selepas text itu . aku seperti kehilangan arah and tak tentu arah jee dalam apaa sahaja y aku buad and kerjakan, kadang-kadang aku mcm tak betul and macam orang gilaa sekejap.  kadang-kadang tuh ku boleh menangis  secaraa tiba-tibaa jee apabilaa aku keseorangan . dyee pergi begitu shajaa tanpaa mengucapkan selamat tinggal . hanyaa bersandarkan text or sms sajja. dan jugaa tanpaa pertemuan untuk kali terakhir. * aku harap aku tak terserempak dengan dyee kat kolej lagi, aku berharap sngat *   dan jugaa aku berharap y dyee akan jumpaa perempuan y sesuai dan secocok dengan dyee, yang bolee memahami gilaa dyee. :(

my heaven boyfriend :D

 I need him, I love him so much, He makes my world became complete. hahahahaha~ awwwww :) i want to know everythin about him, everything ! :) 


*info about him*

Date of Birth

1 March 1978, Dallas, Texas, USA 

Birth Name

Jensen Ross Ackles 

Nickname

Jay 

Height

6' 1" (1.85 m) 

Mini Biography

Jensen Ackles was born in Dallas, Texas, to Roger Alan Ackles and Donna Joan Ackles (née Shaffer).

He grew up in Richardson, Texas, together with his older brother, Joshua, and a younger sister, Mackenzie.

I LOVE HIS PERSONAL QOUTES :)

* When I was in middle school, some of my so-called friends found a catalog ad I did for Superman pajamas. They made as many copies as they could and pasted them up all over school." - on his most embarrassing moment.

* I love the smell of shampoo on a girl's hair. You can walk past someone and be like, 'Wow, you took a shower this morning, didn't you? Because you smell lovely :)  :)